I'm Going to be a Daddy!

#NoLie

I been dating this girl (who shall remain nameless and referred to strictly as "my baby mama" lol or "my girl") for a few weeks and from day 1 we hit it off. She actually already has a baby but the father is not in the picture. I fell in love with her 18 month old son from the minute I saw him. Hanging out and going places with her and her son reminded me of how bad I want to be a daddy.

See, when I was 19 years old I got my 17 year old girlfriend pregnant, but unfortunately 2 months into the pregnancy she had a miscarriage. That was about 5 or 6 years ago. Just last year I was dating a Dominican girl and ended up getting her pregnant. When she told me she was pregnant I had mixed feelings because I did not want to be with her, but I wanted the baby. She also had a miscarriage, caused by a cyst in one of her ovaries. I was heartbroken because all I could think about was how I should have been a daddy at 19 and now at 25, another pregnancy, another miscarriage. She and I broke things off after the miscarriage.

That is all history now.

I feel extremely confident about this pregnancy though. My baby mama has gone through this once already and I have learned enough from my two previous experiences to know what to do and what not to do, what to say and what not to say, when to argue and when not to argue, for my baby mama's stress level's sake. One thing I've chosen to do differently this time around is NOT tell the world that I'm going to be a daddy. I've found that it only adds unnecessary stress to both me and my baby mama. The first three months are the most notorious for miscarriages and I would hate to let everyone know (especially my parents) that I'm going to have a baby and then it doesn't happen. It's HEARTBREAKING!

True, I have not known my future baby mama very long. Not even 2 whole months! BUT after seeing how she is and how she interacts with her baby, I know I have an amazing baby mama in my corner. With her, raising this mutt baby will be a lot easier than without someone like her.

I already know what most people are going to be thinking: Why would she want to have another baby when the one she has is only 18 months? I asked her the same thing and this is what she told me... She said she does not want her baby to grow up alone and that is the main reason. Another reason is she would like to get her babies out of the way since she already started. Both make sense to me. Just so we are clear, this pregnancy did not just happen out of the blue. My baby mama and I planned this. I wanted my first child and she wanted to have a brother or a sister for her baby to grow up with. It worked out! I ended up knocking her up in less than a month. What can I say I got potent shit! lol Not to mention I smoke weed errday! And you know smoking weed lowers your sperm count. Because of that I thought it would take months to get her pregnant. It helps that I'm Mexican. Mexicans seem to be fertile as fuck. If you are wondering what my baby mama is, she's black. My baby gonna have the best of both worlds.

I used to be caught up in trying to decide if I want a boy or girl. After two miscarriages I just want my baby to make it. I want my baby to actually be born. I could care less what sex my baby is now.

I really want to keep blogging about being a daddy-to-be but I have to get ready for work. I might add more to this post later but until then peace out and holla at ya boy!

118 I love it when you call me BIG POPPA!