Once Again

Thanks to somebody now i think i'm hooked on this innermost thoughts blogging shit...

I hate having feelings for girls now. Since Jessica i have been AGAINST developing feelings for girls, NOW i hate it. I let someone in and now i'm fucked pretty much. Can't have her. Im stuck wit these feelings i have for her and whats worse is that there is NO REASON why i can't have her. She's single and so am i!!! Oh yea, im interested and she's not. Want to know what she's afraid of??? Letting her guard down, letting me in, giving me a chance, opening herself up enough to even make it work. Kind of shit is that??? I did all that for her. I got nothing. I wish she would have told me from the very beginning that there was absolutely no chance of us EVER even giving it a shot. She could have let me know so i wouldnt have even made it possible to develop anything for her. So basically she fucked me up. Whether she intended to or not. Its alright tho cuz i aint gonna trip over it anymore. You aint gon see another post that has anything to do with me having feelings for any girls. You aint gon see no sweet shit on here no more. I had a heart of stone before i met her but i softened up and the minute i did it backfired on me so like i said, im done wit feeling anything for any girl. Atleast until i'm out of college. Fuck feelings, fuck relationships, fuck everything. If i was cold before then now im freezing. Its all about school and money now.

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